well it has been quite a while since i have written anything and the perfect distraction for getting some homework done is logging onto this... i have been super busy lately. work school and homework is just crazy and something i'm trying to learn to balance. since this blog is titled one day at a time why not briefly talk about what i stared with.. my relationship which i hope is what i started with because if not i feel lame..aha. being busy sucks. i only get to see my boyfriend about once a month or maybe twice.. if i'm lucky...not seeing each other definitely has been hard on us. little arguments over little things then getting over it..then there's the mood swings because we get grouchy from not seeing each other, sooo we take it out on family members not the best.. we have somehow managed to push through and its really encouraging. it is especially encouraging to know that in two weeks i will be done with my first semester of college!  yay! A whole month to work, bake, hang out with my friends and you know hopefully actually date my boyfriend. By God's grace I'm hanging in there... Hopefully I''ll be blogging more just to type and get my thoughts out, but now back to my homework.. peace! :)

who i am with you

there's this song i am absolutely crazy about titled : who i am with you by my favorite country artist, Chris Young. you know a  song is good when you get chills, right? well when this song came on the first time i heard it tears came in my eyes. 
[Chorus:]
Who I am with you is who I really want to be
You're so good for me
And when I'm holdin' you, it feels like I've got the world in my hands
Yeah, a better man is who I am with you

I've got a ways to go on this ride
But I got a hand to hold that fits just right
You make me laugh, you make me high,
You make me want to hold on tight

i am in love with romance songs and movies and  such so it's no wonder why i love this song. yet this song has soo much meaning to it. "who i am with you is who i really want to be" this song has so much meaning to me because the person i really do want to be comes out when i am around my boyfriend i am able to be my complete self and he makes me want to be a better person not because he tells me i need to be (which he doesn't) but because i want to the best me not only for me, but for him as well.  when i'm with him he brings out the best in me because i'm happy and when someone's happy they're bound to do good thing's right? 

I've got a ways to go on this ride
But I got a hand to hold that fits just right

when you have your special someone you have a friend for life someone to share your moments with someone to experience life with. i love this portion of this song because i know i have someone by my side in life who will be there for me through the ups and downs. with him in my life i know i wont be alone (of course spiritually i would never be alone) but i have been blessed with him to have a hand to hold of reassurance a hand to hold when i just need his presence in the silence of my thoughts.i have him with me on this wild ride of life. 

You make me laugh, you make me high,
You make me want to hold on tight

 you could always use someone in your life that makes you laugh and my boyfriend definitely does make me laugh. he makes me happy and want to enjoy life. everyone deserves to have someone in their life who makes them smile and look forward to living life. from my perspective love is about having a special someone who makes you happy and not bitter, makes you laugh  and not cry, look forward to waking up each morning and not dreading your day.love is about finding someone who makes you want to be a better person, finding someone who will help you grow in life not only in your worldly ambitions but also someone who will encourage your spiritual growth as well. i am very thankful for the boyfriend i have been blessed with because i know he will encourage me in all the aspects of life in which i hope to achieve.

take life one day at a time and at the right moment you will find the person who will make you want to be a better person when you are with them not because of force but because of the want for it that comes from your heart.

one day at a time: its meaning
so it's a nice sunny day in socal and i decided while i'm sitting outside that i want to make a blog where i can just write any thoughts i have for the day and maybe something inspirational that can wow someone or something completely random which would catch someones attention and think i'm completely crazy which i'm not at least i don't think i'm that crazy compared to the friends i have. so as my first entry on this blog i just wanted to explain the title because it does have some meaning behind it. yes this may be a random blog but i did want to title it with something that has meaning to me. One day at a time actually holds a lot of meaning in the title. one day at a time to me means that i need to not stress of the future but take it one step at a time too take each day for what it holds. each day can hold something amazing so i need to appreciate the day before it disappears because at times i am in such a hurry to move onto m own life which is kind of impossible at the moment. you see.. im only 18 but yet i want to move out get my own house and get married, but i cannot do these things because 1: i'm broke 2: i need to finish college before i get married and 3:theres no need to rush because im still so young and have my life ahead of me. though i know these things and my priorities at times i get flustered and want to have things my way now. i want to get married to my boyfriend of 2 years i want to live in my own house and start my future but time and time again i need to remind myself to take it one day at a time. one day at a time is also mine and my boyfriend's motto in a way because during a conversation we were having one evening he was explaining to me of how he had wanted to propose to me on my prom night in may of 2013 but after a conversation with his mom telling him there was a lot going on in my life at that point (prom, graduation, college prep)that it was not the best idea at the time. i'm kind of glad she talked him out of it  not because i don't love him  and don't want to spend my life him because believe me i do but only because were not ready financially. yes we want to see each other every day and be the last ones we see at night before we close our eyes to sleep, but we cant so at the moment were learning to take life one day at a time. taking life one day at a time means to have patience and wait for the day that i am able to start my future so for now i look forward to the future knowing that one day i will be able to spend it with him and in the moment before i commit myself to complete adulthood taking life one day at a time gives me time to work on myself as an individual and learning to put my trust in God's divine plan for my future so that i may grow spiritually and be the best possible  person i can be. take life one day at a time and enjoy every moment you are given because the best of moments turn into the best of memories.